WHATS HOME? HOW CAN YOU COME HOME? 👇
. 🎨@josie.doodles 💗
. ✒@anxiety_wellbeing . 💗SELF LOVE SELF CARE
Looking after your human needs, taking time to find out what they are, & then making these a priority in your life by putting calm time & doing what you love in your plans, will keep stress at bay & your anxiety at normal levels👍a little anxiety is normal.
A very important human need is accepting yourself for exactly who you are, you are your home.
The person you were at birth, the person before any tough situations, before pain, before other people's words, other people's ideas, other people's pregedists, before other people's feelings, emotions came into your home, if your needs weren't met self love can feel alien & like you don't deserve it, but you do
💔ALL of the above can change our ideas, can have us not speaking kindly to ourselves, when we don't understand why people are like that with us we take things personally, we take their pain with us, but it's not ours to keep, we learn ways to survive because were too young to understand situations & very often as a child have no choice but to find a way to survive a situation, we end up taking these patterns with us, we needed then then but not now. It helped then but it's not now.
BRINGING YOURSELF HOME
🤦♂️Take yourself back to your youngest self, write a letter as that young human, how you felt, your true feelings from back then, let it all out, it can bring you sadness, even anger (be safe & kind to yourself still) that's ok, maybe yourself needed a vent & didn't have the opportunity to do that, you can now, you're allowed.
👨👧Write your youngest self a letter, as the adult, remember you, the innocent you that tried to navigate tough times and speak to them with such love, kindness with understanding and compassion. They need it. You can build the bridge between the two, you can speak to them, explain as an adult what you understand of those situations now, that You are here for them now & forever more.
That's bringing it home, that's self love 💗💗💗 .
2462234 hours ago
Admitting how you're really feeling and taking that mask off, is usually the bravest thing you can do!
It's okay not to be okay and it's okay to show it ❤️ Image: @doodlebotillustration
Mental health / mental illness reminder. Know that it's okay to have bad days, weeks, etc. It's okay to relapse. It's okay not to be okay. What matters is that you show up to each day ready to fight with all you've got. And that effort may be different each day but it's there and that's what matters. Take care of yourself xx
Let’s talk about treatment. Anytime of mental health treatment can be scary especially residential. I enter my first stay is residential in 2015. It was very scary at first. Being away from home and loved ones. Not being able to sleep in your own bed. I had a little over 5 stays in residential treatment center. My overall experience is that they are very beneficial. It’s helpful to take time away from the outside world and to be in an environment that is all treatment and recovery focused. Sometimes we do need more help than just regular outpatient therapy and that is okay. Residential has saved my life. I learned so much about myself and tools for recovery. I don’t think I would be where I am today without it. So if you think you need more support residential treatment is a good option. It may seem scary but it is so worth it.
Yesterday, I laid on the couch from 2pm until I went to bed at 11:30pm. Everyone in my house just assumed I was taking it easy. They didn’t realise I was screaming internally. Frustrated at my inability to get up and do the things I wanted to do. Hating myself for being this way. 😔.
Sometimes, because others can’t see my illnesses...I start to question if they even exist myself. This is where I have to remind myself that my struggles, like with the couch yesterday, are very real and valid. 🤗.
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Once again thank you to @sound.series for confirming what ive been trying to prove to myself mentally now im gonna be chasing this life till death creds: @andrewtpillot_
*trigger warning/ abuse &abandonment* .
I've been fighting off some sort of a depressive episode, trying my best to be the mom my children need me to be. .
My own mother is toxic, and I go back and forth between hope and realization.
Hope - that she will somehow end up being the mother I need her to be,
Realization- that she will never change. .
She abandoned my sisters and I several times throughout our childhood. Leaving me with the responsibilities she couldn't handle... she abused us, and just to sum it up, did some really fucked up shit. .
But I still love her.
And I understand her. Probably more than she understands herself. .
My mother also goes through cycles... sometimes, she will lead me to believe shes changed, maybe during that time she has... Then other times she is just so down right abusive that I have to stop talking to her for my own mental health. .
Today I had to block her. .
I just couldn't take it anymore, and the truth is that, unlike when I was a child... I now have the power to eliminate her from my life. I now have the power to say "you know what, no... I dont deserve to be talked to like that." .
So I did it. I blocked her. .
I dont know for how long,
But I do know that I would never treat my children the way she treats hers. .
I would never say such hurtful things to someone I dont even like, let alone my children...
And the hard thing about all this ... is that I understand WHY she is the way she is. She is mentally Ill too, just like I. The only difference is that I am the one who will break the cycle of abuse.
I am the one fighting the fire every day so that my babies never feel the damage that has dripped down from past generations.
I'm the one eating healthy,
going to therapy,
battling depression and manic episodes,
working out, and journaling.
So that my precious, beautiful, amazing gifts from God, NEVER have a mom who treats them like she treats me. .
. (A photo from tonight, baby wearing my daughter after coming back from an intense workout class that sparked some emotions)
If you’ve met someone and you’re considering dating them, get on one of their social media accounts and private message 3 of their girlfriends. “Hey, I’ve been talking to so-n-so and I’m thinking of meeting/dating/fucking/starting a relationship but I don’t want to get hurt or waste my time so I thought I’d reach out to some of his female friends first to ask what he’s like, hope you don’t mind.”
There’s this rumour going around that women are jealous bitches, and it’s just not true. Think about it logically.. why would a woman deliberately lie about a man to stop him getting a gf? Because she’s jealous, hate filled, and doesn’t want him being happy? I don’t think so.
We’ve got to stick together, and be honest with each other, and share our knowledge. You’ll find out pretty quickly if he’s seeing other people, and the type of person he is.
I think about my ex, and I’d hate another woman and her children to go through what I did, and I’d absolutely be honest about the type of man he was.
Let’s reach out to each other, and look out for each other... In fact, why wait until we’re contacted? If a person is dating someone we know is abusive, lets reach out to them and let them know. It is our business to protect each other. Who else is going to? The worst thing that’ll happen is you’ll get labeled ‘bitchy’, or you won’t be believed. The best thing that’ll happen is you’ll stay/keep someone safe and make a wonderful new girlfriend @ameestuart 😘
been feeling surprisingly good all day, for no reason actually. I didn't overthink that much and just went to do things and even felt really motivated to workout. when it got to eating I struggled bc of background noises our noises from outside but I distracted myself w youtube videos. I also dusted my room and now I'm gonna study for my swedish exam on tuesday already?! yikes