TRIGGER WARNING!! / this probs won’t even make sense as my heads all over the place lol. just want to give up. i’m so fucking tired of everything. finding it impossible to open up to people and let them in, I’m trying but I physically can’t and I know it’s only going to make things worse but fuck it. all I want to do is fucking die. the past few days the thought of killing myself has been constant. its all I can think about. it’s all fucking bullshit. stupid me binned the rope I bought a while ago so guess I’ll just order more when I get paid bcos poor bcos wasted all my money on drugs. it’s got the the point where I’m so agitated and angry I’ve even debated opening the window and letting the cats out for someone to find them and give them a better home because I can’t cope anymore. I don’t want to get better anymore, I just want to fall asleep and never wake up
I love this top so much, and love the way it looks, though not on me. I feel like I am stretching it apart. My boyfriend and I have talked about getting a gym membership. God knows I need one..
I've been very crafty lately and I'm very proud of myself. I have also been adulting. my friend is back home and their mother has me livid. I am going to talk to her. She has an amazing child and is very ungrateful.
I started a new "diet" with tons of fruit in it & I'm so excited. I love fruit.
I work tomorrow and THANK GOD my boyfriend and I made pot brownies. I need them to get through the night. 😂😂
I'm looking forward to going to sleep at a decent hour & being productive the next day.
also shoutout to Miranda @borderlinepersonalitygirl for inspiring me to start this page. I have interacted with her on my personal account and she is such a doll. go check her out!! 💗💗 #mentalhealth#mentalillness#bpd#recovery#mentalhealthblogs#ptsd#ed#eatingdisorder#ocd#eupd#coping#depression#anxiety#bipolar
Trigger warning ⚠️ My apologies for being MIA. I had a short hospital admission from Monday to Wednesday. I'm happy to be out but things are still bad. With everything happening right now it's no surprise I feel this shit. I won't be seeing my new psychiatrist for a couple of weeks. Which is a really long time considering I'm struggling to get through each day. I have been suicidal and I relapsed with self harm a few nights ago. I really haven't felt like posting so please know I won't be active for a couple more weeks or till I start to feel better. Thanks for understanding. ❤️
- Saint Charlotte†
I’ve not posted in a very long time, for reasons I will explain in another post, but today is my FP’s birthday and I can’t say happy birthday to him because I don’t want bother him and I feel so sad. 🐟 #pisces#piscesseason#capricorn
Weird how you can go from seeing someone as your soul mate for nearly 2 years, to them suddenly vanishing from your life for no reason. Like there really was no warning, she just stopped messaging and coming round. Did I do something wrong? Is she just a dick? Was it ever real? Or was it all just a ploy to get over here for good and have some cash to start off with? How much of the last 2 year's was fake, and how much of it was real, for any amount of time? Just lonely tonight as got no friends online to talk to. #depression#anxiety#ex#eupd#bpd#dpd#avpd#agoraphobia#mentalhealth