I’ve been pretty sick recently so this one is a simpler drawing. It’s roughly based off of a weird fever dream I had, I really don’t have an explanation...
4,2204211 February, 2019
THIS!!!. Although never use your mental health as an excuse to be an asshole. Yes sometimes we can feel grumpy and irritable but try and remember that it’s never an excuse to not apologise. It’s tough. But it’s also tough for others to be around if they are trying their best to help us. If you are struggling and feeling low try surround yourself with people who are supportive and who don’t make you feel bad or guilty for your mental illnesses. Sometimes friends can take it personally if you cancel plans etc, but try your hardest to remember that your health is more important and you can’t control how others feel. 🖤
These things can also happen if someone has been mistreated in a past relationship. I know so many people this affects!!! Talk things out slowly and calmly. Understand that the person suffering doesn’t want to feel these things and it’s an awful feeling. Also the person on the receiving end has not doing anything wrong so can feel like they can’t do anything right. Tell each other how you feel,no body wants to feel neglected or like they can’t trust. Be aware of how certain things make your partner feel. In a relationship you should always want to make the other feel loved and supported so make sure you take care of each other. Don’t become obsessed or over baring, this will only make you angry and drift apart. Conversation is key 💘
Try your hardest to remember each day that your mental health can try to control and consume us. Relax,take deep breathes and tell yourself repeatedly that you are stronger than your anxiety. These are just thoughts! I completely understand how real they feel and I understand how some days it’s too loud and hard to fight it but never believe the lies your mental health tells you. Take a step back, Try loosen the control you have on the situation. Treat each day as a new one and stay strong. Reassure yourself that everything is going to be ok. Distract yourself or talk/vent it out with someone you trust! The thoughts are horrific but remember they are just thoughts 💗
Me explaining how I got to the worst case scenario to every single situation to my therapist. “Do you see it now Linda?.....that’s how the world collapses just because I didn’t say hey to that lady that one time” 🙄
🌿 Put up a really filtered selfie the other day but this is me post panic and ibs flare up. Really sad I had my first panic in a month today, my ibs got so bad i had to call my dad for him to come and get me. Ive been doing so well recently but today was just too much. Im determined to not let this turn into a downward spiral and to keep going how im going. Any tips in not letting a panic attack lead to more? 🌿
28121 hour ago
This is for all my people who struggle with chronic digestive issues! Does anybody in the world NOT have tummy trouble with the sheer amount of stress we all carry on a daily basis? We know for a fact that the brain-belly connection is strong, but the gastrointestinal system doesn’t make it easy to pinpoint a cause.
I have noticed that when I’m particularly anxious my digestive issues are exacerbated. Yes, I know that many other diagnoses could provide an explanation for these symptoms: For example, my hypothyroidism and post cholecystectomy syndrome diagnoses in adulthood. However, I’ve had chronic nausea and spontaneous vomiting my whole life. I’d be naive to consider that my panic disorder and childhood PTSD haven’t contributed to this symptom complex as well.
Do you struggle with tummy issues? Do you have a chronic health condition, physical or mental disability that contributes to your symptoms? If so, know you’re not alone and I’m praying for you ❤️
we all have shame.
we all have secrets.
we all have skeletons.
there is no one human on this planet is exempt from this. not the richest person you know. or the prettiest. or the most successful. or the person you look up to most. we all have these 3 things. it’s just part of being alive.
but we then all have this really cool choice. we get to CHOOSE what we want to do with our shame and secrets and skeletons. do we want to continue to carry them alone and feel the weight of them bear down on us more and more OR do we want to release them, share them, expose them. terrifying, maybe. but possible, absolutely.
“You either walk inside your story and own it or you stand outside your story and hustle for your worthiness.” - @brenebrown
so own your story. own your worthiness. really get that you’re enough as is. even with alllllll the stuff. even with all the shame and secrets and skeletons. you’re still enough. even if you feel like you’re in this ongoing battle within yourself to really claim that.
your enoughness is your birthright. and no person. no circumstance. no anything can ever take that away from you.
the thing about shame is that when you start sharing what you’re ashamed of, the shame starts to break down and compassion and love replace it. and eventually, where shame once stood, now just stands your kickass majorly empowering story.
I was once ashamed of being gay. now I just am. 💁🏻♀️
I was once ashamed of not being able to get pregnant because of my anxiety. now i’m just the luckiest mama ever to the bestest boy in all the land (who I still got to be biologically related to). 🙏🏻
i was once ashamed of having anxiety. now I kinda see it as my always-teaching-me-something-new-about-myself sidekick. 🦸🏻♀️
i still carry shame. I still have skeletons. I still have secrets. we all do. but I will continue to expose them and release them and love them up with everything I got.
I invite you to trust in your super brave heart and do the same.
because i promise you this much: it feels a lot lighter on the other side. 🤸🏻♀️
So I tried embroidery to keep myself busy and so far it's going good. I got some space to practice and it helps to distract my negative thoughts and feelings.
I'm not very good at it yet but practice makes perfect! I've been feeling like shit in the mornings again and I'm not sure why, when I see the doctor I'll have to talk about my anxiety and how it hasn't been better yet
When you suffer with low self-esteem, anxiety and a lack of confidence, especially when out in public, it's natural to look down and not to seek things - people, experiences, life - out.
A trip out is something to be got through, then back to the safety of home, peace and quiet.
I've been like that for too long, decades, I've spent a lot of time looking at the end of my shoes and the pavement just in front, it becomes self fulfilling as when you look up it's as if suddenly the whole world is staring at you. I'm trying to change though.
The simple act of looking up a bit more makes a huge difference. Gradually confidence grows, the world around you unfolds rather than suddenly jarring into view and then receding once more.
Looking up brings things of interest - the picture is a typical building in Manchester, one where I'd usually see the bottom portion, not the top. Looking up can put you on the front foot, chosing what to experience and focus on rather than being forced into reacting.
Looking up takes practice, it feels forced at first, but it's worth it. It brings a sense of belonging.
So, ich bin auf der Eilliste für die Tagesklinik. Alles ist soweit vorbereitet und meine diesjährige tagesklinische Psychiatrieerfahrung kann starten. Anstrengend war der Vormittag, denn Aufnahmegespräche blicken mit dir zurück in deine Lebensgeschichte.
Immer wieder erstaunlich ist für mich die Reaktion meines Gegenübers. Oft kommt die Frage, wie ich das alles überlebt habe und wieso ich trotzdem mein Leben bis jetzt ganz gut gemeistert habe. Offensichtlich bin ich eine Überlebenskünstlerin. Ob man darauf aber stolz sein kann, weiß ich nicht. Ich finde es eigentlich traurig, dass ich sowas werden musste, anstatt einfach nur leben zu dürfen wie viele andere da draußen.
Zumindest habe ich schon ein Projekt für meine ersten Woche dort. Akupunktur. Ich hasse Nadeln. Vor allem, wenn sie mit Ärzten und meinem Körper zu tun haben. Und nun soll mir sowas in der Klinik helfen zu entspannen. Das wird lustig. 😂 Und ja, ich freu mich auf dieses Experiment. Der Akupunkteur wahrscheinlich nicht so.... 😂
1424 hours ago
#day224 been absent for a while being busy but as always life is ups and down. Been having some good successes lately including visting a friend who normally i find it hard to
Final thought for this extended period of time in which I was awake.
It’s like 4AM here and I can’t help it this this is the time where I’m most conscious. I’m thinking clear, I can reflect on the day, and I feel #creative . Finally. Right before the sleeping meds have completely worn off. In just a few minutes I’ll have to take them all over again. What a “sickjoke 🙃 A normal sleep pattern was the first thing to go when I got sick with #schizophrenia . (Through educating myself about my illness, I have learned that #hallucinating is just one possible factor in a multitude of symptoms that encompasses schizophrenia.) I can almost even remember the day. I went to bed, with intentions of sleeping, but I never fell asleep. Thankfully a lot of what was to follow, so long ago, is a blur now. It’s at this particular time of day / night (depending on how you look at 4 AM) where I feel the most lonely too. With the reduction in my meds, especially when talking about the taper and removal of my #antipsychotics , I find my self wild with desire to seek out connections with the outside world. I’m tired locking myself up and shutting myself out of the world in fear of... what? Someone calling me a PSYCHO? If you don’t love me then fine... but just know #iloveyou#iamseekingyou and #idontbite#bemyfriend#socialanxiety#agoraphobia (PS. This is one of 3 neon signs we have in our home. I’ve always been a little obsessed with this one in particular.)
738 hours ago
BEFORE ANYTHING SHOULD COME UNDERSTANDING | LISTENING | VALIDATION ❤
You are going through, however you feel it in your body, symptoms, in your mind, overwhelming thoughts, scary thoughts, can't see a way out thoughts. The first thing in healing, aiding, helping is to say.
I BELIEVE YOU.
Say it to yourself, then tell a doctor, if you feel it, if you think it, there is something! Anxiety will have you thinking its death, it's not that it's anxiety but your feelings count.
I have posted tips for Agoraphobia in stories.
That's it's label, but it's:
A fear of going out, being in public, of what will happen, of how you will cope, of just petrifiying thoughts & feelings.
All about it, but no-one around me knew, no-one I knew had had this, understood, maybe didn't believe, that didn't matter I knew. It was my reality. The symptoms were crazy, I was afraid of the air, afraid of everything, I was also hiding from telling anyone; this blocked myself from any help.
🌱I eventually had had enough of being scared 24/7, i decided to see a doctor.
He knew what it was
He acknowledged the symptoms
He sent me for help
I saw a cb therapist
I learnt a holistic approach
I brought all anxiety down
I decided to help those like me.
I discovered I am a natural helper
I learned cbtools
I became a coach
🌱If you are in any mental distress, go see a doctor first***, get help, get advise, it will be the first step of exiting the anxiety circle. Get that understanding that you need from there. Talk, let it out. You're allowed, join this community, we talk, keep it positive, offer help, stand by each other.
REDUCE THE FEAR
Scared of the symptoms?
Learn what they are!
Scared you have something else?
See the doctor he will tell you the truth.
Waiting to See a cb therapist
Get help in between from an anxiety coach who has been there, panic, gad, ptsd, agoraphobia.
Seen a cb therapist & still anxious uncertain?
Try a coach ❤
Take care all.
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